Written on Dec 13, 'Stop Whining'

     Last night on the drive home, I was thinking about work. Seems that is most of what I do...or I am feeling angry a lot about work; or some situation that seems important to ME. It's a loooong drive from Austin to Belton and Father decided he had listened to enough of my continual drival. My walk had been moving further away from God lately and less focused on spiritual things. I was not writing for Father nor chronicling as I am led to do....always to busy, or whining about my own frustrations. Father led me to understand this, "I put you where you are for a purpose. You are there until I decide to send you somewhere else. Quit Whining! Stand and Show Yourself The Man. Rejoice in suffering and know that in your weakness; I show MY Strength. Did Joseph whine while spending years in prison? And what about Paul who was beaten, shipwrecked and stoned? What makes you better than my prophets of old who were hounded and murdered? Quit Whining and do what I ask of you!" This is what God placed upon my heart last evening.

    Then, I saw all the things He has accomplished while I was here, and I understood more what my time here has been for. Sometimes, we do not know why we are placed into situations and do not understand the 'impossible' situations that we find ourselves in only to find that God was there with a plan that we never even could have hoped to accomplish on our own. I keep getting asked by everyone, even my own relatives, what I will be doing next (after this assignment) and I tell them, "I do not know." That is the honest truth. I know what I would like to be doing next but honestly; Belton, TX was not in my planned path and God brought me here for a reason. I did not want to come; sniveled and whined about being sent. Now, I am honestly glad he did. I have true Battle Brothers who I can call upon to listen when I need to openly confess to my childish behavior or other failings and whom I can stand beside when they are in need. I know that He has a plan for me somewhere after this. Do I know what it is? No, but I believe that he will open that door for me when he is ready. I do know that I will serve God, my family and those he places in my care to the best of my ability.